I don't want to talk about it...

you know that "thing" that everyone knows is going on but no one wants to talk about?

well, I don't really like that "thing", never have... why? because sometimes that "thing" makes me emotional- mad, sad, happy/sad, vulnerable...ugh vulnerable...

lately, there have been lots of "things"- none, of course, that I currently would like to discuss, but of course I'll mention...

• senior night
• spring athletic banquet
• finals week
• my friends graduating
• knowing my brief stint as a collegiate softball player is quickly coming to an end
• pretty much knowing that life is changing faster then I am and that things aren't going to stay the same forever
• thinking that maybe I should decide what I want to do in the next couple of years/the rest of my life

scary stuff...growing up...

am I ready for this? right now, no....tomorrow, maybe...soon, I hope!

but for this moment, this very second, I just want to go on not thinking about it...

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

more then eggs and bunnies...

sometimes I think people forget what Easter is all about...

This year it hit me how much Easter is about family and love...

God sent His ONLY son to die for OUR sins...to show how much He LOVES us!

AMAZING...

A love so great that He would sacrifice is son...it blows my mind...

Humps

We lost to a bunch of CAMELS! First of all, who wants to grow up and play for the Camels? Second of all, who loses to Camels?!?

Ok, I know I sound bitter, but I am tired of losing....and not just to the Camels. Just plain sick and tired of it! What is even worse is that I'm not sure why we're losing. We're a good team with good players. Player for player we're better then the teams we face! DANG IT!

On a more positive note, I get to be roomates with Kelli Rutenbar. She a good person to have to spend a weekend with. I also get to go home for Easter! Which means fun times with mom and dad, Amber, and Cooper...

...I guess life isn't so bad...but LOSING still is. Kelli and I have decided to be positive-- no more negativity. We're going to go inning by inning, play by play, at bat by at bat...

Gardner-Webb better watch out...the Ospreys are swooping their way and we're not going home 0-4!